|
| i had a strange thought today. i was talking with someone about being outside and somehow the conversation ended up talking about different colors of the outdoors. like: the sky is blue, or the grass is green, tree trunks are brown and leaves change from green to orange. It was a good little chat ya know and then i thought to myself a strange question...................... what if the sky were green, the trees blue and gray, the grass orange and purple. Would everything be just as beautiful then as it is now. at first i obviously said no way, but then i said to myself..................... "self....., wouldn't what ever color everything is when i'm born be just as beautiful because i am born into it and it becomes natural. But how could creation be anymore beautiful. I just don't see how if the sky were purple how it could even be considered good looking. then again ii could be wrong. not really sure.
thats random i know but hey, thats just me i guess. finals are over. YEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!
Oh and i played with a six yr. old brown with black spots boxer today. it was awsome. guys.............. i want a boxer bad..
ok, well...............i 'm gonna go sing in the shower. word.
| | |
| So heres the deal. i got to hang out with my incredible mom this weekend and loved every minute of it. She is so great even though sometimes i think she worries too much. but i love her regardless.
Anyways i also got to hang out with my bud chad, his wife, and beautiful daughter, Indie Marie. That was amazing because i have not seen them in a long time. Chad practically made me who i am. (don't know if thats a good thing or not. i'll leave that up to you)
Random, but some of you may wonder why my name is Moosey7. Why moosey? what a weird name. This is the name of the best dawg on the planet. his name is moose. he is my friend chad's dawg. He is a boxer and i love him to death. he's great and i wish he was mine.
But yeah i had a great easter and hope everyone else did as well. A lot has happened this year. i got the Residence Assistant position at KSU place and I'm pumped about it. I also realized lately that i might do study abroad in the fall. I really want to go to Greece. It would be a great experience and would be great to get away for awhile. In the mean time i plan on working at american eagle this summer along with umpiring baseball. i will be spending the majority of my time at home though hangin with the folks. haven't gotten to do that over the past few summers. plan on layin in the sun and laughin a ton and havin fun being me.
Hope all you guys have a great week and much love to ya. Out like a fat kid in dodgeball........ oh .... wait....i was that fat kid in dodgeball....... danget....... haha. it wasn't original but hey, i thought it was funny. ok i'm gonna stop now. see ya. | | |
| I heard something this week that was so motivating for me in my walk. The second that your desire for anything becomes more passionate than your desire to grow deeper with God, he becomes jealous. I have heard that ever since i started my walk. But I was talking to a good friend last night at a coffee house and I began to say those words. It hit me all of a sudden that God really is jealous when i am not spending my time talking, breaking myself, getting mad at him, praying, reading the word, or even crying to him. I sat there last night on a bench in marietta square trying to picture how God was feeling. When i actually tried to picture him crying for me i had no other picture coming to mind except the cross. It is amazing at how easy it is for us to forget the cross. I mean you guys, this cat hung from a rugged and splintery cross with the only things supporting his body were just three nails driven through is hands and feet. Not to mention the 39 lashes he took tearing and ripping the flesh from his body and the walk he maid with his cross in his back. He hung on that cross with only one intention and only one desire. That desire was for me. It was for you.
I have put too much dependence, lately, on what people say and think about me. Its not wrong in that I should care what people think about me as far as making sure they know that i am who i say i want to be. and that is a guy who loves God with everything he's got. A guy who loves people, loves to be random and loves to laugh. A guy who loves to lift others up and hold to his word simply because that is what i am called to do as a man of God! But where i seem to have fallen short is allowing the words of others begin to slowly have an unecessary inlfuence on my thoughts and actions. I began to feel somewhat restricted and pressured by others. I know i should not feel that way but even though i want to refuse to let other's comments get in my head, it became somewhat exausting having to deal with them every day.I have been telling myself the whole school year to not analyze others comments sometimes. But this semester i thought about it more than enough to the point to where last night i sat down behind this open mike coffee house and realized i have allowed the exact thing that i desired and wanted so much to not happen, happen.
Be confident in who you are and do not spend so much time worrying about what people are saying or doing because when you catch yourself doing this, sooner or later you will come to the realization that your trying to be someone your not. He went through so much pain and anguish yall that i could never fathem how much love and grace he has towards me. I will never be able to fully grasp the the incredible concept of his love for me. To realize that he isn't just upset with me, he is turly jealous forces me to break myself of any remote selfishness i might have in me. I mean he is down on his knees crying over me. He wants me so bad. He wants every peace of me.
Dear God, Thank you for loving me with endless compassion and for convicting me time and again . Continue to break me so that i can go through each day with such a joy and passion that people can't help but see you and not me. I am who i am and i am satisfied with that. I will continue to strive to be a better man each day i live.
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~The one and only Dr. Suess
Hope you guys have an great week this week and i encourage you to just be yourself. Your character defines who you are; NOT your reputation! I have learned that the reason people like being around me is mainly because i am just a home town, laid back southern boy who loves God, loves people, and loves to laugh. This is who I am and is who i always need to be.
Love, peace, n chicken grease
| | |
| This weekend did not start out to great. Friday morning i woke up and felt so terrible. the traditional head congestion (not really sure how to spell it). It did not make me feel very great. I drove home and went to the doctor. after leaving the doctor i got some zaxbys. haven't had it in while and it was great. then i went home to chill with mom. Mom is the greatest when your sick, but she can also get a little aggravating. wish i could find a better word to use besides aggravating but its the truth. yall know what i'm sayin though. You love the fact your mom wants to help you because she worries about you because your her baby boy ya know. i love it that my mom cares about me but she kept asking the same questions over and over. "hows school? Do you need me go get more medicine? Are you dating anybody? How are your grades? Hows work? Hows the apartment life?" etc...... Question after question. I know that it is because she never gets to see me except maybe once every two or three weeks. Ya know what though, i realized that a lot of people don't even have a mom or dad who cares that much to the point to where they are always checkin on you simply because they truly love you with everything they have. What thinking of it that way, i can't help but appreciate my parents. i am so lucky and so greatful to have parents like i do.
i ended up also getting to see my baby cousin Avery. She is six years old and is the most precious beautiful little girl ever. She is like my little sister. I have tried to make it a priority over the past school year, that when i go home, to make sure that i visit my family. All of my mom's side of the family lives around each other so i figure i need to visit them when i get the chance. i pulled into the driveway of my uncle's house and Avery was sitting in the swing in the front yard. I got out of the car and she ran right into my arms. She is the greatest. i picked her up and put her on my shoulders and we ran around the yard like there couldn't have been a single thing at that current moment to worry me or get me down.
I got on a bit of a tangent but my point is that there is nothing like being able to go home and know that my family looks forward to seeing me. I was feeling so bad yesterday and when i got home, there was a three hour time period where there wasn't anything on my mind except my family. They uplifted my spirit so much.
God thank you for allowing me to have a family who, although they have been through so much stress and drama over the past years, they continue to lift me up. i am so greatful God. As frustrating as you can be sometimes, please continue to teach me more patience and more discipline. anyways, thats it. peace n chicken grease yall. | | |
| Whats happnin?! This weekend i got invited to be a counselor at a disciple now at my old church i was so excited when i got asked to be ther because i miss working with students. Last summer i had an intership and got to travel around the southeast to 7 different camps. at each camp i had a team of at least 15 highschool students. i had a blast. it was so much fun. this past weekend was the first time since last summer i had the chance to goof lead, and goof around with a bunch of highschoolers.
It was a great weekend for me because i was able to get away from Kennesaw and do something else. I was so tired and exausted from the busyness and the worries going on. It felt so good to have nothing to worry about except how i was going to be a light for my highschool guys. They encouraged me a lot without even knowing it. Throughout the weekend, one at a time, each one would pull me over to the side and talk about what they were experiencing. Once they started talking the couldn't stop. i sat with one guy alex for about an hour and a half listening to him expose himself; listening to him break himself before God. It was a great to witness. Watching a ninth grade boy cry out to God.
We played some amazing rounds of maufia. It was craziness, but they were great and i am glad i decided to go.
Elsewhere in my life, i started umpiring last week. I love it becasue it makes me miss baseball and i make some quick cash. Some sad news is that my great aunt died. it was a tough weekend for my mom but she made it through it. Well thats about it with me right now. Yall have a great week.
"Never be one fry short of a happy meal or one tree short of a forest." | | |
|
